I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast is Me

I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast is Me 

By Jamison Shea

Macmillan Audio, 2023. 12 Hours. YA Fiction

This slow-burn horror novel lifts a veil on the institutions that profit from exclusion and the toll of giving everything to a world that will never love you back. This program is read by Grammy- and Emmy-award-winning-actor Kristolyn Lloyd. Laure Mesny is a perfectionist with an axe to grind. Despite being constantly overlooked in the elite and cutthroat world of the Parisian ballet, she will do anything to prove that a Black girl can take center stage. To level the playing field, Laure ventures deep into the depths of the Catacombs and strikes a deal with a pulsating river of blood. The primordial power Laure gains promises influence and adoration, everything she's dreamed of and worked toward. With retribution on her mind, she surpasses her bitter and privileged peers, leaving broken bodies behind her on her climb to stardom. But even as undeniable as she is, Laure is not the only monster around. And her vicious desires make her a perfect target for slaughter. As she descends into madness and the mystifying underworld beneath her, she is faced with the ultimate choice: continue to break herself for scraps of validation or succumb to the darkness that wants her exactly as she is—monstrous heart and all. That is, if the god-killer doesn't catch her first.

I decided to read this book based on the title alone and I was not disappointed.  I did find the beginning a bit slow and perhaps I found Laure a bit unrelatable as a girl obsessed with ballet.  However, the book is very introspective and you hear so much of Laure's inner monologue that you can't help but root for her in the end. The author does a fantastic job at using the symbolism to add different layers to the story. I also thought that the narrator was absolutely brilliant at putting through the emotion of the characters. This book is dark and a little gruesome, but I would suggest it to anyone who enjoys a suspenseful story that also gives you moments to think a little deeper.

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